For awhile I found myself feeling
empty lost after spending excessive amount of time on Social Media. The internet is cool and Social Media is fun but I’ve found it to be entertainment when done in moderation. Focusing on the wrong things made it hard for me to be happy because although I felt like people were putting up a fake image, I just couldn’t help feeling depleted. It’s so easy to lose track of time and lose focus on what’s important when the world is all pointing the finger and telling you what’s hot, what’s not and why you’re not cool enough. Everything and everyone’s lives just seemed “perfect” and I couldn’t quite figure it out. Then I realized, it’s not you, it’s me.
I had to get over the hype of feeling like I “needed” to keep up and feel as though I wasn’t doing enough. In reality, I was burned out from doing too much. But compared to those I was focused on, it seemed as though I wasn’t doing anything. It didn’t hit me until I was applying for a position in the writing world that I saw all of my accomplishments on paper. I saw that my countless amount of hard work, time, dedication and lack of sleep meant something which amounted to the results I lived daily. In that moment I realized that the most important things to me weren’t on Instagram and many don’t see that part of my life. I realized I was good enough for exactly who I am and what I aim to become one day, so I decided to take a break from focusing on others and I began directing the attention back to me.
I decided to record this video for you and although there was only so much I could say in the allowed time, I knew if this was something I dealt with, someone had to have gone through it as well. Thankfully, I no longer spend time worrying about the who’s who unless she’s making a difference in someone else’s life. Then I would want to discuss how her role can join forces with us at No Boiz Allowed. But to those that are constantly fighting to keep up, sometimes it’s best just to keep still. A friend once said, get lost and find yourself. Well I did and I feel amazing with what I’ve found. How are you feeling?